being kinder to all

I have been working on being kinder to all in my thoughts and in my actions. This is part of the 30 day kindness challenge I am taking part in with a group my cousin set up. I have been trying to pay attention when someone does something for me and to be sure and thank them. Also I have been working on having more positive thoughts and saying more positive things to people. Also trying to pay attention to my moods and if I find myself getting negative or down, then I am working on changing that so I am feeling better. I have been working at going through somethings I have brought when we moved here deciding what things I might really want and what things re just taking up space. I go through most of my craft stuff and have two boxes of stuff. I am not sure just what I will do with it all yet, which is part of the reason I think I put off going through it so long. I have also given myself permission to fall into some books as of lately. I really enjoy reading. I love to immerce myself in the story and feel like I am living them too. I am not a horror fan, so most of my reading is fantasy, Sci-Fi, or romance. I am finding when I pay attention to my moods, most of the time I am fairly content and happy. I am not a big thrill seeker and a bit of a scaredy cat with physical adventures most of the time. I am working on not worrying so much about what others think of me and just trying to be the best happiest me I can. It isn a bit of a struggle to let the "I should" go and do what is best for my contentment. I am not even sure who I think is watching and judging me anyway, but have away as long as I remember, worried about if I was doing enough, good enough, and proving to "them" I was worthy. Now I am not sure who I think "them" is! well I am still a work ing progress!

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