Pondering

As I talk with Dale on this trip, done reading on joy, done research happiness, and thought over what I have heard, read, and talk about; I am beginning to think that happiness is not one thing. It is a set of things all wrapped up and how I react to it. It is more than a feeling or event. It is not adrenaline or doing something out of the ordinary. For me I need to relax and look at the now. I am going to be doing a mini grateful diary here several times a week. I will pick one thing I am grateful for and explore it then think about it and how my life is blessed for having it. I am going to record all of those thoughts so I can have them here to look at if I come to a down day. I am going to try and be more present in my here and now, not being upset over something in the past I can not change or stressing over something that might happen. I will do my best to arrange my life so I have prepare adequately for the future, but not wasted my present on worrying about it or the past. Joy comes for me in many ways, sometimes it is a small warm feeling inside, sometimes it is the bubbling excited happiness, other times it can be the wonderful overflow wonder and awe. Happiness for me is a mood and feeling. Things do not make me happy. Happiness happens for me in my mind and seeing all the good things that I have and have had. Bd happens, but it does not have the power to take away my happiness, unless I let it. That is easy to say and believe, but harder to hold to always. I will work on it though.

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