try to look with new eyes

I have had a couple of days to think on the purpose of this blog. I among thinking that there are many degrees of happiness and joy.
There is the sweet joy I experienced attending a bridal shower for one of my best friends daughters last evening. The bride to be just glowed and to see her so bubbly and smiley brought a warm glow to my soul. Also my best friend was also just so smiling and radiant. The happiness in that event was so special.
There was the happiness of a belated birthday wish from one of my aunts. It reminded me how lucky I am to have two aunts (86 and 87) still only a phone call away. I have my mom who I talk to or text nearly every day (she is 84) and my uncle who is so active with his beautiful wife (both in there mid 70's). I have no-one of the generation above me on the other side of my family, but I have these totally caring people (my mom and her siblings) still here to visit with!
My daughter-in-law, son, and their kids are decluttering their life and downsizing to have more money and time to spend doing things together. They are an example to me, as is my oldest daughter. My daughter has worked to not let stuff be more important than her husband and kids and being with them. I am so proud of both of these two women as they are working on living a life were people and memories are more important than things. They have our 4 grandchildren (each couple has two kids).  I am so grateful for what good mothers my daughter-in-law and daughter are. I love that they can teach me things and are striving to be themselves, not what they think others want them to be. Stuff does not necessarily make one happy.
I am working on attitude, enjoying each day, and looking for things that warm my heart.

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