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This is a banner year for me, I guess. I have just turned 60. That still seems strange as I don't feel like I alway thought I would feel when I was getting "old". In my mind I still am young like in my twenties and thirties, but the mirror show something a little different. I am working on many things such as a healthier lifestyle, and traveling. Both of which I address in a couple of my other blogs.  For quite a while now, I have felt like I have lost the wonder of living. You know that joy for life, feeling like you still know how to have fun. I think without that I will truly become old. I have pondered on how to find it again, for yes, it did have it once. I used to try a lot of new things, loved people and being around them, people seemed to want to be around me, life held wonder and adventure. I seem to have forgotten how to do  that and how to have some of those feelings. Don't get me wrong, I am not seriously depressed, but I am not excited for the next thing to come either. I want to recapture that excitement and fun again. This blog is inspire by a book I just finished reading. It was about killing someone with kindness and got me thinking that maybe it is time to push out of my comfort zone and try really living my life again, not just going through the days.

The first thing I am going to work on is trying to have a positive attitude and a grateful attitude. I have to say today I am focusing on being grateful for my family.
Also I think that doing little things. you know, reach out to someone each day. For today I am going to call text my daughter and if she has time just chat for a while.  Also try to be aware of those around me. Not just go through the day not seeing what is around me, but really seeing what is happening and if I can make someones day nicer. When I am out (I don't go out every day, as we live  a little outside of town up in the mountains), I am going to smile at people and try to do nice little things for total strangers. I will see if I can make the world just a little nicer place to be.

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