On a positive note

After the last post, I want to state that I just  needed to write those feelings down so I could  acknowledge the some of the problems and start to let them go. If you don't accept that there is a problem, how can you fix it. Writing them down helped me to see that I am letting the past (in some instance, the distant past) put a damper on my today and possibly my tomorrows. I do not want to do that! So I am working on letting them go and concentrating on finding joys now.
I have been to two showers this week, one a bridal and the other a baby shower for twins.
Here is joy:


Smiles, laughter, and good friends!

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